Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Orchard Girls

The dirt is moist, the grass puckers with water, and the orchard bulges buxom with apples. Eliza is at school, my Mom has the boys, and I'm with the girls. It's not often we're together, just the three of us.

We pick up Michelle and drive to the orchard because I want to remember the way they look at three. Not four. I want to still the laughter, the purity, their smiles and smirks, those warm brown eyes, the dimple in Sami's cheek.

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Morning light slicks their curls gold. Halos rise, stalks glow, and the world catches fire.

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Our Ali-girl. Timid and quiet in a crowd. Never mind that she stays close to me, slips her hand into mine, leans against me and creeps into my lap. She is strong and quick, bright and articulate - her memory strong. A fierce passion grows inside her. If only I can let her be who she is, intervene less, love more.

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Sweet Sami. Confident, happy, pure, and good. She is content in the moment (almost every moment) and her joy is contagious. Sam loves easily, expecting nothing in return. She makes us laugh with her silly sense of humor. I curb my tongue, try to look before I speak, because she wilts with correction. Her intent is taintless.

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These two - so different, have each other.

Say, say oh playmate! Come out and play with me.
And bring your dolly three (or kitty). Climb up my apple tree.

Slide down my rain barrel

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Into my cellar door

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And we'll be jolly friends

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Forever more.

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I push Ali in the swing and my heart flies out of my chest at the thought of them changing. But my concerns lie low when I think they will share school, girlfriends, interests, and experiences - seasons of life. Forever.



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I see myself and realize I'm not that girl on the swing anymore. I'm not the gangly self-conscious teen with a retainer and glasses. I'm not even the girl on campus, slumping into seats, writing sappy poetry, memorizing anatomy.

I am a mother. I'm the woman I used to gaze up at, call out for, criticize unfairly, and love. I am that woman. Me.

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So I hold them close, take in every bit of it. This love. This connection to my orchard girls - my babes, who like the trees, just keep growing. They too have their seasons. And this one is nearly over.

I breathe it deep, clutch at it - at them, but it is never enough. Can't be enough. Not when this is what really matters.

Photos by my friend Michelle who harnesses light, lives right, and mothers with purpose. Her photography and words always fill me. I love you Michelle.

13 comments:

  1. By the end of the post I had a lump in my throat and tears. So beautiful.

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  2. Thank you for sharing your heart and your family. Your words always touch my soul.

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  3. What a treat to see these adorable girls... Beautiful pictures and very touching words which give me tears and warm my heart... Thank you Catherine for sharing...

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  4. Beautiful photos of beautiful girls and beautifully written.

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  5. these are so precious . . . what a treasure!

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  6. Oh Cath how can they be almost 4!? Seems like just yesterday they were newborns. They are beautiful and their sweet spirits shine through. Merry Christmas to your entire clan!

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  7. I am so glad you got into the pictures with them. So often we just get pictures of the kids and when we look at the moment, we are lost! You all look fabulous.

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  8. Visiting via Seven CHerubs. What a lovely post. I really enjoyed it, and btw your girls are beautiful. Motherhood is full of ups and downs but WAY more ups!

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  9. beautiful pictures!!! where did you get the adorable dresses and tights? i am so loving their curls. just want to eat them up. :-)

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  10. All - thanks for your sweet thoughts.

    Heather - I know! Seriously - time is spinning way too fast.

    Shells - it was Michelle's idea. And I'm glad.

    Crystal - just saw Seven Cherubs post. Thanks for cluing me in! So glad you visited. I couldn't agree more. Way more UPs!

    Erin - Carter's. On Sale. Great deal.

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  11. Cath, they are so beautiful. Loved the one of all three of you! You are just as beautiful as they are. i am so glad I get to see you once a month (or so). You are so great!

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